I Jumped (Off of My Comfort-Zone Diving Board)

I took a big leap last week and dove head first into a realm I’ve thus far only dreamt of. I re-entered the world of teeth. It’s the reason I’ve been somewhat absent from here; I’m processing. Oh, am I processing…

“We need to give each other the space to grow, to be ourselves, to exercise our diversity. We need to give each other space so that we may both give and receive such beautiful things as ideas, openness, dignity, joy, healing, and inclusion.”

~ Max de Pree

I hung up my scalers a year ago and have since wondered how I might stay in the field but out of the mouth. In 1983 when I was licensed, I hit the ground running and became a hygienist completely in love with my profession. Does that make sense? In spite of what may be perceived as downsides: I LOVED MY JOB (and yeah, I miss it).

Last Friday I was given a chance. I began what I hope to be many months if not years of helping dental hygiene students become proficient excellent oral health care providers. What have I done? I started as a volunteer “instructor” in a dental hygiene clinic in a school that offers a Bachelor’s degree in Dental Hygiene.

As a volunteer, I primarily coach the students with instrumentation and placement of films in radiology, or wherever they may need assistance. I’ve been assigned to the junior class, and they’ve just learned to use the ultrasonic scaler, how to administer anesthesia, and to use specific scaling instruments. I am not able to give grades; however, I can advise and encourage and share my experiences and stand on my feet all day long and leave the clinic with a huge smile on my face, hoping knowing I’ve helped in some small way.

“Failure is unimportant. It takes courage to make a fool of yourself.”

~ Charlie Chaplin

Thanks, Charlie, and while I won’t say the day was a failure, I will say that at one slightly hair raising moment I felt a bit foolish.

That’s how I imagine it anyway in the eyes of Sarah*. I advised her on film placement with an angle too severe resulting in a mandatory re-take (oops!). I was familiar with the system in general, but not the film holders they are using. Be patient; I’m learning just like you, I wanted to scream. As the quote says, we need to allow each other space to grow, including me. Sarah summoned two instructors for help while I stood by trying hard not to look stupid (never mind how I felt). Because, aside from the film holders, I didn’t know my specific role. I was unclear whether or not I was allowed in the mouth–I assumed I was not–so I held back.

I must remember that I am the clinic’s first volunteer hygienist, and they don’t know what to do with me. I had completely forgotten this my first day on the “job.” OK. Deep breath. And, again. As I try to imagine my presence in their eyes, it became easier, roles defined or not. Aside from their, “What are we to DO with her,” and my “What the heck am I DOING?” I feel the day was a success.

As she said she would the day before, the clinic lead threw me to the wolves. I was introduced in the morning–and was greeted by the students with a heartwarming round of positive responses–then left to my own devices. New to the learning environment, I felt dazed; indeed, I’ve not set foot in a hygiene school for 36 years. The pace is slug slow (compared to private practice, i.e. the real world), and students are graded on everything. My brain was ready to burst, but I hung in there. I wasn’t going to let my eight hour hot flash induced by stroke level blood pressure a little nervousness get me down. I wasn’t going anywhere. Not yet. I tried to breathe without passing out. Is it possible to hear someone sweat?

Parts of my day went pretty well were freaking awesome:

I helped Tereza* with instrumentation after practicing the ultrasonic scaler on a plastic model. I helped with angulation on anterior teeth as well as in imaginary, deeper areas–the “pockets” your hygienist talks about–on posterior teeth. After her afternoon patient had left, I checked in. That’s when she smiled and told me that what we did that morning helped. HALLELUJAH! I helped! I actually helped! WOO HOO!!! HAPPY DANCE!!!

I helped Cori* with a suggestion for making the periodontal evaluation more comfortable. I advised she use topical anesthetic on the tip of the probe, or, better yet, keep an anesthetic soaked Q-Tip handy, in case. The priceless look on her face told me it never dawned on her to use topical outside of giving an injection. Go, Karen! Go, Karen! Go, Karen….

I talked to Cheryl* about what brought me here and why I got my master’s. Aside from talking about me when they thought I wasn’t looking, I know they are curious. Who IS this woman who WANTS to come in and spend time HERE? She’s lost her marbles, I’m guessing they’re saying. I need to show them I am real, I’m human, that we likely have much in common.

I revealed my humor when talking with Ava*. She told me about a difficult patient she was debating whether or not to treat. Thus far, all of her patients had been easy. The difficult patient would definitely be a challenge, so I told her two things: 1) in the real world, she will not have a choice; and, 2) he needs treatment and this is why we are here. She appeared near crestfallen, but I added, “Just between you and me, I won’t get mad at you if you choose not to take on this patient.” She burst out laughing, and proceeded to ask me if I was coming back for the afternoon clinic.

“Nothing you wear is more important than your smile.”

~ Connie Stevens

So, yes, I dove in head first. I fled the comfort of retirement. I’ve taken on the familiar but that which must be revisited (and updated). I’m challenging myself to stay the course. I am pushing myself to go against my default zone of holding back, not talking, staying withdrawn, but pushing myself into conversations and situations where I can share my experiences that may be of help. I will not quit (I just checked my email and I’ve not been told not to come back.)

Once I began stalking engaged the students with conversation and got a little nosy bombarded them with questions of my own, the time started to fly and I stopped looking at the clock. Breathe, Karen, you can do this.


Ellen Johnson Sirleaf

I recalled my lifelong dream to mentor dental hygiene students. I will stay the course, because, aside from the awkward unease we all feel when things change, to the depth of my deepest cell, this feels right; it’s where I belong. I am beyond excited to be there, to be able to walk in and spend time with these eager students. Am I scared? Uh, huh. Am I going to quit? Nope. Why?

❤ I hope to be the mentor I never had. ❤

“One minute of patience, ten years of peace.”

~ Greek proverb

*Not her real name.

Kobi Yamada quote: http://www.quotesgram.com

  30 comments for “I Jumped (Off of My Comfort-Zone Diving Board)

  1. February 12, 2017 at 6:17 pm

    This was such a funny but also genuine piece. I was wondering what you were up to. Now I know! Congratulations! What a big step, but it sounds like it is exactly what you always wanted to try. I was talking to an advisor of sorts a month or two ago about my own career indecision, and he told me, “Nobody ever got anywhere by doing what was comfortable.” Like your student, I was a bit crestfallen. Why does the best road have to be so steep and rock-strewn?! Still, I am excited for you! I can’t wait to read more about your experiences! I hope that the vistas along the way and the final destination more than make up for the difficulty of the path. 😊

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    • February 13, 2017 at 12:17 pm

      Such lovely thoughts, Lulu. Thank you so much. I think the path may get a bit smoother as of this week. After Friday (and a now sore back once again), I’ve asked to help in areas where I can stand and not sit. We will see how that goes. Your advisor is right on the mark, don’t you think? Still, I know that unless my back behaves, I’ll be tempted to return to my comfort zone of private practice, somehow. For now, I’m determined if nothing. 😉 Have a great week!

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  2. February 9, 2017 at 8:06 am

    Thanks for sharing and thanks for helping the next generation of dental hygienists in their journey. Never quit because I am sure that they appreciate it.

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  3. February 8, 2017 at 2:03 pm

    This is fantastic Karen. I bet you felt so proud of yourself afterwards. I totally get how nerve wracking it must have been, dealing with the changes in any profession after you’ve been out of it a long time would be daunting but it sounds as though you did an awesome job. Good for you for taking that leap. xo

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    • February 8, 2017 at 2:16 pm

      Thank you, Miriam. I was in a dazed stupor and overly tired (and did not sleep the night before; imagine that!) but the next day I began my happy dance. 🙂 I was quite nervous and kept asking myself, “What have you done now?!” But, all in all, it was a good day. 🙂 ❤

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      • February 8, 2017 at 2:21 pm

        I’m so glad. Isn’t it a great feeling when we conquer those fears. 😊

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  4. February 8, 2017 at 1:58 pm

    Good for you! I love that you know it won’t always be easy, but that this is what you really want to do, and you are making it happen!

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    • February 8, 2017 at 2:13 pm

      Thanks, Ann. I could feel it in my bones that it would be a hard day–and indeed, since I only sat down for 30 minutes within a nine hour period–I was exhausted. I never had a mentor when I went through school and this just feels so right. Thanks for stopping by. 🙂

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  5. Lynne Olson
    February 8, 2017 at 8:23 am

    this is your arena, and you want to feel needed and to make a difference…… proceed and enjoy

    Liked by 1 person

    • February 8, 2017 at 1:22 pm

      Yep, definitely my arena. Just feel pretty rusty at the moment. I will make every attempt to “proceed and enjoy.” Thanks.


  6. February 7, 2017 at 7:59 pm

    Wow!!!! Look at you! I’ve wondered what your big surprise was you talked about doing a while back!!! Bravo! I’m impressed! Takes nerve to try something new. What lucky students! 🎉🎉🎉

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    • February 8, 2017 at 1:21 pm

      Yep, this is what I’ve been hinting at. I am completely and thoroughly shaking in my boots, but I think this is considered normal for something like this. I’ve been “out of the mouth” for a year…and while it’s all quite familiar, I am rusty. Giving it some time. 🙂 How are you?

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      • February 8, 2017 at 5:02 pm

        I’m proud of you for taking the leap! What a gift you’ll be to someone. Even if you’re shaking in those beautiful boots, you’ll learn together. You have tons to offer them, but maybe you’ll learn something about life from them, too. A win win! ❤️

        I’m pretty good. How’s your boy? Settling back in to US life again?

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        • February 9, 2017 at 2:25 pm

          It is absolutely a two way street; I will and have learned from them, already. Pretty sweet deal, right? The son has settled back into life at home–up in the attic which we fixed up for him while he was gone. He had a great time. ❤

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          • February 9, 2017 at 5:41 pm

            Oh good! Glad he likes him room!! I can’t wait to hear your stories from your new adventure of volunteering. 😊❤️

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            • February 11, 2017 at 8:04 am

              Thanks, Sweetie! Some days are bumpy, and as long as they know I’m not trying to hone in on their jobs, I think it will prove to be very OK. Student response has been really nice, but still, I am learning their systems and protocols and as long as they know that, it should be OK. ❤
              Just a tad overwhelmed at the moment…

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            • February 11, 2017 at 11:40 am

              I bet so!!

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  7. February 7, 2017 at 7:58 pm

    This brought tears to my eyes, Karen. I am so happy for you. Retirement is overrated. At least the kind where you stop doing things you are passionate about. You have found you still have value in the world that you feel at home in. Having value adds years to ones life. There is hardly a greater gift. In a week or a month, you will be so comfortable doing what you do that it will be as second nature as when you were working at your job. Go, Karen, Go.

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    • March 22, 2018 at 12:27 pm

      Marlene, sadly, this is another that I retrieved form the trash file. I may have to have a few words with the higher ups at WP. So, yes, it has been a while since I wrote about this topic, and I have to say that while I was so proud of myself for trying, I decided not to continue to volunteer in the dental clinic. The reasons are too many for this post, but your words touched me and made me smile. I love the “Go, Karen, Go.” This is what I love about the WP community. I tried, I really learned a lot, and made the decision not to continue. Maybe one day I’ll write about why. Thank you for your fabulous enthusiasm. ❤

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  8. February 7, 2017 at 5:47 pm

    Ha! Isn’t a blast to be the ol’ timer returning to familiar stomping (chomping?) grounds?

    Glad it was such a rewarding experience.

    Really love the quote btw… “If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough.”

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    • February 8, 2017 at 1:18 pm

      Isn’t that the best quote?!!? Guess this dream is big enough as I’m thoroughly petrified. Your “chomping” made me laugh out loud. I used to work for a dentist who would walk into the room at exam time and inevitably ask, “How are your choppers?” and he meant it. It was the way he talked (and it made me smile every time I heard it). “..ol’ timer” for sure. 😦 Thanks for stopping by. How are things over your way?

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      • February 8, 2017 at 2:18 pm

        A little chaotic actually. I’m in Romania trying to come to grips with some alarming political garbage.

        But the snow is coming down really hard, which tends to calm people down (and gives me the chance to enjoy a few more Snow Days 😉 )

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        • February 8, 2017 at 2:22 pm

          My son told me last night about some news in Romania, and I’d forgotten this is where you live. Is this the news about the $48,000 cut off? I hope the snow helps as you say; if not, it’s a lovely image. Here we were hit hard in January and then again this month. We are very ready for sunshine. Hope things settle. 🙂

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          • February 8, 2017 at 2:24 pm

            hehehe hate to send a plug to my blog, but my latest post will answer these nasty questions.

            Liked by 1 person

            • February 8, 2017 at 2:34 pm

              Doesn’t bother me at all. I’ll have a look. 🙂


  9. Amy
    February 7, 2017 at 5:26 pm

    Good for you! That’s great!!

    Liked by 1 person

    • February 8, 2017 at 1:14 pm

      I hope so, Amy. Feels awkward now, uneasy, uncomfortable…need to give it more time. 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

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